we just had our first meeting back from holidays and it is at a really bleak time where the pandemic is at its worst in the UK. it was an assessment briefing for the one in march, with the ten page pdf and study assessment in mind. I think it'll be a challenge to bring together everything, we'll see.
its crazy to look back on recent posts a few months ago on the camera and see how i was thinking of the object. nowadays, I feel fake, like I am pretending (acting?) to be obsessed with the thing. I casually shove it amongst my mess in my still-unpacked suitcase (will probably be that way for the many many months) and feel an almost-guilt for continuing the obsessive sentiment in my work. after all, it's been all clayed up after vacuum forming it. who cares what kind of condition it is in now? what happens, happens. is this the fate of all outmoded objects? of tools that have lost its initial purpose? I feel sad for the thing. its future is bleak.
> am i obsessed with the object? or am I obsessed with the idea of the object? and is one more real/important than the other? if it moves you in some way, even if it isn't what it is Really, does it matter?
speaking of future, past, and everything about time I've been really interested in this science stuff lately, and have been casually watching those informative videos on yt which I appreciate so much for learners like me who may absorb information better in this way. you just get recommended super random math and science stuff (there are too many technical terms I don't remember) that you wouldn't even think of to google yourself because you don't know it exists. for example, last night I discovered that some in this world are obsessed with finding a pattern that never repeats itself in tiling. and that aperiodic tiling even exists. ill link it here anyway, along with some others. its almost stressful how much you don't know about the world. everything is so inspiring.
The Infinite Pattern That Never Repeats
Wormholes Explained - Breaking Spacetime
Does time exist? - Andrew Zimmerman Jones
this ones a bit random but the trailer for bo burnhams film eighth grade, everything about the trippiness of it (perhaps subconsciously relating to how I am distorting some of my images) and Especially the music, such an anxious energy... its genius.
EIGHTHGRADE_gl00bysw0rld082218.mov
and this one which I thought was a beautiful video essay about the bleak world right now.. its crazy to think about being in the presence of architecture, without people.. ghostly, lament..
When The World Became A De Chirico Painting
on the subject of video essays this one was really interesting, I didn't even know this 'pentatonic scale' thing existed.. and how traditional music sounds eerie to the 'western' ears because they use different scales (?).. it can sound unresolved at the end of the piece.. and joe hisaishi's music in particular, been compared to debussy, because it has a floaty, perhaps less dramatic, comparing to an impressionist painting.. anyway I just thought this commentary with musical theory was super fascinating because it is a completely foreign area that I have no skill in but can appreciate a lot of, I think music is one of the mist powerful arts. moves you, carries the atmosphere, that's so powerful.. I really want to incorporate sound/music in future works.. but not sure how to approach it yet.. anyway, I also appreciate the princess Mononoke thumbnail because it is literally my absolute top film for life, alongside other ghibli films (tales from earthsea literally gives me reasons to keep living) and the music! no words can describe ghibli music.. but this video did a good job.
Why Miyazaki's Films Sound Pretty
apart from yt videos, i love podcasts too. I like them because again, a more conversational way of talking about things makes it easier to absorb sometimes. like john green's podcast the anthroprocene. recently, a youtuber I like talks about things like how confusing time, mirrors, and other science stuff is because he is also interested in these things too, but he goes about it in a hilarious way, i love it. sometimes i think science readings is so full of jargon and it feels quite hard to access. anyway, maybe one day some of these things will feed back into the work..
------- anyway, I also watched the crits, just some references mentioned
