I am really interested in jelly, and proposals

 I am intrigued and have always been intrigued by jelly, fruit jelly, jelly with fruit slices in them, homemade crumbly jelly, half-transparent, tinted, clear jelly, ice, the transparency and frozen in time, trapped ness of it all, floating, unmoving, like taxidermy, diorama, display, capsule, but its also kitsch, the aesthetic, the cliché, the glitch, the irony, the reminder of time passing with the lack of any sign of it, glass, the fragility, the solidity, the jelly, jelly, jelly.

I might research into the typical ways people DIY resin jewellery at home, and look into edible jellies or gelatin, who knows where I might end up. I just know for some reason I want to put Things in these capsules for no reason, or a reason I don't know yet. I could put text, everyday objects, hair, other jellies, my audible words, a key, a ridiculous collage. in old school point and click games, when you desperately click on random objects to combine them to see if they make something useful - like that, in real life - and who says they're not useful?

jelly

[ jel-ee ]

noun, plural jel·lies.
a food preparation of a soft, elastic consistency due to the presence of gelatin, pectin, etc., especially fruit juice boiled down with sugar and used as a sweet spread for bread and toast, as a filling for cakes or doughnuts, etc.

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jelly1 | ˈdʒɛli |  (plural jellies) 1 [mass noun] chiefly British a fruit-flavoured dessert made by warming and then cooling a liquid containing gelatin or a similar setting agent in a mould or dish so that it sets into a semi-solid, somewhat elastic mass: [as modifier] :  a jelly mould. • a substance with a jelly-like consistency made with fruit or otheringredients as a condiment: roast pheasant with redcurrant jelly. • a savoury preparation with a jelly-like consistency made by boiling meat and bones. • any jelly-like substance: petroleum jelly.

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I am also really interested in writing proposals - with my personal dilemma of never doing things but having so many ideas - I realised - I was really making proposals - starting points for proposals, ironically, the proposal gives someone somewhere to start, thinking back on what peter liversidge said in that video I linked in that blog post months before. but how to present proposals.. thinking back again to the artists as suggested by zoe. it is definitely a more relevant and interesting time than ever for the genre of proposals - being limited in what we can do. this feeds back to the sentiment I have that I hate that I have, which is, if I can't do it all, why do anything at all? peter liversidge said that the text is as important as the physical work beyond the proposal because the work exists in the mind of whoever's reading it - so, is the imagination the work, the prompted, steered, manipulated imagination by language, ordering of words, I could write descriptive, a story, a narrative, a dream (my dreams) ..

I just wrote one down from a dream a few days ago and here it is without editing, raw:

I propose you to walk through a river canal with your whole body submerged in the water but still be able to breathe, to walk slower and slower as the blood drains from your body to your fingertips… it’s blue, your blood is blue… you reach land, you were in the city after all. You turn corner after corner, everything’s now drenched in a warm haze and you feel nostalgic. Glimpses of almost recognisable structures like vending machines and mini rides for kids in front of a pharmacy barely differ in colour to the rest of the scene. You turn again and it was like the alleyways are being made as you look at them. I propose you walk towards that room you’ve been seeing in your head this whole time, your destination, somewhere you haven’t been but know that you have to be. It is low-ceilinged, corners barely visible, charcoal coloured liquid gas seeping in, calculated as if someone had programmed it so, to soak you in darkness. You bring your body around the last alleyway, a last turn and step down some steps,_ and you know in your mind you are about to reach it,  that room you know will be your end. I propose you never reach it. I propose you wake up. And you do.

this sounds like whoever's controlling my dream is controlling it live as I was having the dream. I suppose that someone is myself, my subconscious. but we don't know that. this could be interactive. anybody could do this exercise. perhaps i can switch 'you' to 'I' in some places for some confusion and truth. I feel this format is more engaging than a mere description of a dream because at the end of the day - who cares? a dream is personal to the dreamer. it could mean everything to me but be absolutely stupid to you. and vice versa. but proposing this experience upon you, the reader, I am ordering you to experience it as close as possible to how I did (how I remember it now) - and why is that important, what is the purpose of this work? is it just an experiment to on the reader's imagination - is the work to pull them into your world and see how they stand? I suppose that's every artwork in the world. you are expressing something, somebody else experiences it, take it or leave it. how will it resonate with them? how can they relate? do they need to in order to feel something? I guess this is why visual work is more easily engaging than text... I don't know if I want to lean on the visual as much - sometimes too much detail boxes in the vision, when you can give a colour, or some vague strokes, markings, slap on a title, and have infinite interpretations... perhaps I'm all wrong, I do not know.. but who is to say..

this proposal format is really interesting to write with - I could write my whole life story with it. I could say, I propose you wake up a little too late and feel drowsy the whole day. I propose you to think about fruit jellies and proposing proposals. I propose I propose...