Today I did another digital drawing of the same A4 dimensions (I scaled up this time, just in case I need it a little bigger physically) and tried the same thing. I started off with writing a phrase again, and for some reason it felt like I was stepping into this 'journey' with more 'wonder' rather than the more negative mindset of 'I guess this is it for me' from the first drawing. I guess I was subconsciously thinking about that part in the Charles avery's interview when they were talking about the idea of the explorer, the desire of being the 'first' to discover and name something or somewhere, like constructing that map. and with this mindset, the drawing naturally became this imagery of this 'man', this explorer, hunter-gatherer, this figure venturing and things like butterflies and a creature (with legs I drew from Bosch's bird in the garden of earthly delights) (and a corner of the space shuttle Challenger blast off)
I realise that at first glance it doesn't really look like much, but I like that, hopefully, if you look at it more, more recognisable things will emerge. I already know where everything is so I can't unsee it, so I can't imagine what this drawing looks like to a pair of fresh eyes.
details:
the man with another side profile kind of peeking from under his hat, and another face on his cheek/eye area, and a more cartoony side profile in the actual hat itself, not pictured here
this creature I saw in the marks, which I drew legs from bosch's creature below:
there's a demon-like creature biting down on this butterfly (which the wing on the right looks like the butterfly wing, but originally was actually the demon's featured arm), anyway, I saw a rocket type thing in blast off so I sourced an image from Challender for this bit of the drawing.
I think I want to keep going where these drawings are taking me. I'm quite enjoying this 'unplanned' - ness compared to when I usually use collage to plan paintings. I guess I'm taking a lot of inspiration from sarah's workshop, I really feel like I'm drifting through these 'pencil' marks and really, what's important to me at the time will naturally come up, which is really strange when you think about it. I guess it goes with the whole 'automatic drawing' thing in psychology/surrealist movement. anyway, this drawing was in danger of being overcrowded cause I kept seeing things in it so I stopped at this point, it was already much busier than the second and first, but it's exciting because it really felt like I was on this journey to,, somewhere..
maybe I'm letting that idea for the visual proposal come true slowly.. I'm thinking of these drawings as fragments? of this fictional planet (which is real, just as Charles avery's island is real), and maybe in the visual proposal I can somehow make it seem like the viewer is discovering these scraps of this world, abandoned??? I'm not sure yet.. I have images in my mind of these drawings just left at an abandoned theme park or something (I'm thinking of nara dreamland or that one scene in isle of dogs where they walk past the remains of that amusement park where the colours were all gloomy). anyway, I feel I need to do more for this idea to form completely, so I'm not gonna stress about it too much (even though the deadline is dangerously close..)