today we had our first meeting in a small groups with zoë and nelson since the lockdown. it really marks the first day we're 'back' in uni. it was really nice to get an update and talk to them/hear from them face to face what's happening. mainly I wanted to know more about the visual proposal, in place of the degree show. It seems to be very broad, almost infinite, a proposal could be literally approached in any way... zoë talked about some artists whose entire practice is proposals, which is a really fascinating concept. I asked nelson if it has to take place in a physical space. I was confused, and now I understand that it doesn't have to be on a 'degree show' wall, I was thinking about the proposing of the arrangement of potential artworks and having no idea what that would be like since I don't have my artworks yet... ? I need to develop my ideas more and see where that leads me. I felt a bit more relieved to hear zoë say that she understands that for a lot of us our mediums will change because of this lockdown, and that's me.. I'm doing digital things (though not progressing very fast.. I don't know.. but I already feel like I am trying my hardest.. it is just very difficult for me sometimes to grasp what the hell I'm doing, here... like I am trying to grab blindly at pieces and see if they fit together... and it feels like my arms are moving in slow motion) but I do feel reassured after the meeting, I see a clearer picture of what I need to do now, and that I can fully trust the digital process and run with it, and that small drawings and collages are perfectly acceptable as full works... (though I am not used to seeing them that way as I always use collages as preparatory devices), and now that I am understanding that I am excited to keep moving forward. I'm excited for the talks and upcoming resources as well, especially the Diana Taylor and the digital artist's talk in a few weeks.