for the bad painting prize I was thinking of using some text / maybe a little drawing. I ended up doodling some more rabbit characters and quite enjoyed it, they were kind of existential. I decided I wanted to do more little drawings... I realised I really love using little narratives to express a certain sentiment I felt at that time, and I've always felt like I don't know how to draw but really, when you make a mark with your pencil, you're drawing. So I'm going to keep doing it...
I haven’t entered bad painting the previous years and figured I should do it this year. It was actually really liberating just doing whatever, kinda letting go. To be honest, I don’t think I did it very well, it wasn’t ‘bad’ enough. I just sort of took a doodle I did and put it on the canvas. I guess I was thinking gory = bad? though I did use my old gems and ribbons and cut them up, like arts and crafts. It was really fun, like trying to make something out of nothing, which I feel like is what I’m doing with some makeup looks sometimes. Anyway, it made me feel freer with my drawing, like it doesn’t matter what the outcome is, because it really doesn’t. And truly, sometimes the less you think about it the better the outcome is and you can never ever plan for those kind of things. Yes I can’t draw super realistically but I’m not that kind of artist... I should embrace it. And I could become that kind of artist if I wanted.. but I don’t think I want to. All in all, I’m just glad I did something and contributed in helping in some way this year.
