I was feeling down after the exhibition for some reason, and decided to write my feelings out. They're not good, but they are raw. I definitely feel like I could start incorporating more of my writings in my work even though I'm not too confident in it. It's somehow a little embarrassing, putting your real emotions out like that. I'm starting to not care about that though. You have to embrace what you are and what you feel.
the combination of visiting the viktor wynd museum of curiosities + museum of childhood + bill viola/michelangelo at the RA on the same day
was like life and death hitting me in the face - something that is so inherently HUMAN.
from my original ideas of ‘dreams’ … that is human too, isn’t it. isn’t it? I searched ‘do animals dream’ and all the information seem uncertain. It’s definitely something we humans think too much about.
( https://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2011/11/111129-sleep-dreaming-rem-brain-emotions-science-health/ ) also found this article on dreams helping to ease painful memories.
however, “dreaming is not a cure-all for emotional stress,”
dreams, for me, always come unexpected - especially the horrific ones. When I expect a horrible dream after seeing something graphic, it, like a joke, doesn’t come. After going to the museum of curiosities, right before I fell asleep, I keep having involuntary flashes of images to do with the things I saw there - insects with long limbs scattering, etc etc. I thought for sure, I am going to have the most uncomfortable nightmare. But they were kind to me that night. I had a pleasant dream. It felt warm.