As I was writing my project proposal aim for the FMP, new ideas to further my research suddenly popped into my head. It might be the effects of this sickness I'm experiencing, I find that whenever I am ill I'm in a stable mindset to dig deeper into concepts, a dazed and groggy feeling. Until now I've only mainly thought about my own trauma, and how that affected me as well as how I started to view my surroundings, but there were so many others, if not everyone, that have experienced similar situations. I've always liked the idea of putting myself into others' shoes and feeling that pain that they have felt (although of course that is nothing compared to the real trauma) and how I would continue to live with this experience engraved into my identity.
That's why I started to think about collecting these experiences, interviewing close friends in real life who are willing to share, and responding in the form of writing or painting or any form that I felt appropriate. I shared this idea with my friend, and she gave me even more intriguing and wonderful ideas I can work with. It gave me a lot to think about.
I felt that this was a new development in my project since I have not incorporated other peoples' real life experiences in my past work. I also looked at the poem 'The Devil's Wife' by Carol Ann Duffy again, and one particular line drew me in. "If the Devil was gone, then how could this be hell?" An eerie feeling, as it is almost conveying how the main trauma is now in the past, yet these chaotic emotions of fear, melancholy, and shock still remains to this day. I chose this poem by Duffy to look into in particular as she was doing exactly what I aim to do- put herself in somebody else's shoes, and reliving that experience that she's only heard about, second hand. I also took inspiration from Dexter Dalwood's point of painting a location that he's only heard of, but never been in person. I hope I succeed somewhat in conveying these ideas for my FMP.
That's why I started to think about collecting these experiences, interviewing close friends in real life who are willing to share, and responding in the form of writing or painting or any form that I felt appropriate. I shared this idea with my friend, and she gave me even more intriguing and wonderful ideas I can work with. It gave me a lot to think about.
I felt that this was a new development in my project since I have not incorporated other peoples' real life experiences in my past work. I also looked at the poem 'The Devil's Wife' by Carol Ann Duffy again, and one particular line drew me in. "If the Devil was gone, then how could this be hell?" An eerie feeling, as it is almost conveying how the main trauma is now in the past, yet these chaotic emotions of fear, melancholy, and shock still remains to this day. I chose this poem by Duffy to look into in particular as she was doing exactly what I aim to do- put herself in somebody else's shoes, and reliving that experience that she's only heard about, second hand. I also took inspiration from Dexter Dalwood's point of painting a location that he's only heard of, but never been in person. I hope I succeed somewhat in conveying these ideas for my FMP.